Everyone has a story.

There is always something bad that happens in everyones life. That is life. You just have to know how to deal with it. Some people can't handle it. They feel like they can't live with what has happened to them. Thats the biggest reason there are drug addicts and alcoholics. They use to drown out those feelings or memories.

There are things that have happened in my life that are hard to talk about and think about. I'm not one of those people that go out and tell everyone my story. It doesn't change that fact that it has happened if I tell everyone. Its just something I have to deal with. Its made me who I am.

I'm trying to let go. I'm always hearing about how life is difficult and you just have to stay strong. Of course older people tell me that. I'm 17. I'm just starting to live. What I do now is going to affect the rest of my life. Something bad is always going to happen. I can't forget about my past, thats impossible. So I have to move on. Its extremely difficult. I'm not even sure how to do it.

I need to start over. And I need help doing it. I used to be so stubborn. I thought I could do everything on my own. Heal on my own. I didn't need anyones help. But I do. And I know that now.

First I need to forgive some people. I've even thought about going to see one person. I haven't actually spoken to him in...wow, 5 years. I still don't care much for him, and I never will. But I think I need to see him and tell him that I forgive him. Not for him, but for myself. I need to see a few other people and tell them that too.

I also need to accept something. Accept what has happened. "Don't worry about something you can't change or control"

Something else I need to do is forgive myself. Thats too personal to write about though.