The truth is...

clean, clean, clean, workout, keep moving.
mom, Kenny, & I. We're falling apart.
I didn't even know you.
weight loss.
Jason. Not only do I know that you're good to my mom, I think you are good for her. I respect you.
You make me sick. I make me sick.
Izzy. I love her. Shes my baby. Always will be.
The smell of cigarettes & alcohol.
I'm so sorry.
Christmas. wasn't excited. Thankful for the gifts. Dad didn't call me. Even though I didn't expect him to, it doesn't hurt any less.
nightmare. I swear I could feel it.
no peaceful sleep.
I'm terrified.
Uncontrollable puke.
18 in fourteen days. No feelings toward it. No plans.
"Its only ____ o'clock? It needs to go faster so I can go to bed and then tomorrow can go away faster."
many new people.
There is only one single thing that attracted me to you. I know its not right.
Every day, for the past month, I've been nothing but sick to my stomach.
Dad, Jenn, Taylor. I hope you're all happy. I am done with him.
Mom and I had a talk. Everything she said was true.
Kenny. So many thoughts have been going through my mind.
Numb.
chest pains.
regret.
Impulsive plans.
old friends. Jackson people.

I love you:
Mom
Kenny
Dad
Aunt Denise
The babies: Caleb, Ryan, Brendan.
Donavon Crites
Marsha Duff
Ryan Snyder
Aaron Williams
Mason May
Nicole Lucas
Nick D'Antonio

Many mistakes.
So much has happened. I don't know where to start. I've held a lot in. Now other things happened on top of it, and are still happening. I'm so exhausted. Something needs to change.
fresh memories.
disgusted.
I've lost myself.
I feel like I'm in a dream and can't wake up. Time just keeps passing, but everything stays the same.