biological father.

It was almost dark. I decided to walk to the park to calm down and try to clear my head. At some point, calling you seemed like a good idea. I dialed your number with the intention of asking you if I could stay the night at your house. Then it hit me...what if he said no? I mean, he would probably word it differently. So I'd rather not ask you then get shot down. For a second, I thought that you might just maybe ask if I wanted you to pick me up to do something. I would have been happier if you asked if I wanted to stay the night, without me implying that I wanted to. But you didn't do either of these things. You didn't know it but I was crying when I was talking to you. I know I shouldn't be surprised. At least you said, " I hope you have a better day. I love you" before we hung up.
I think one of the worst feelings is realizing someone doesn't care about you when you want them to.