Bits and Pieces.

mall. meaning? dissapointment. tight grip. sleep deprived. leather jacket. post-it notes. tension. shock. doritos. buried. quitting. english paper. moms love. listening to the doors because it calms me down ad makes me happy. that ring. frustration, confusion, frustration, confusion. trying not to cry. not before, and not after. winter formal? trying to only think about the present. no sleep, but lots of energy, then no energy at all. "I love you and I'm just now coming to terms with it." <-- fuck you. taking care of Izzy when she is sick. glass bottle lamp. pale skin. experiences. voice giving out. vibrating chest & bones. blacklight. ecstasy. quonset hut guy. closing my eyes. metal, rock, techno. sticky floor and table. perverted men. him watching me, to protect me. dirty bathroom. uncle matt guarding me. blue liquid. loud screams. hearing about you. taco bell at 1am. dizziness. hearing more about you. donating blood. you scare me. piece of the broken necklace. two bandaged arms. doctors appointment. kennys birthday. distractions on purpose. will it fix itself? our talk. singing to an old song in the store. i wont say i hate you, but i have no probably with saying i really dislike you. barney colored nail polish. thank you for reminding me why i don't tell people anything. what is right and what is wrong? job. flashbacks, good and bad. i feel like i haven't had time to heal in a while. i'm so sorry. i'm not sure if its better to know exactly who you are or to not know who you are at all.