appointment.

dizzy
throbbing head
eyes and mind can't focus on anything
need to puke
belly growling.need to eat?
heart racing
whole body shaking
scared
nervous
She asked me many personal questions.
Got prescribed some meds.
Now I realize that I made the decision in my head not to take those pills as soon as I left her office. Mostly because of this statement she made: "You will know when it starts to kick in. You will start to feel things again. So I want you to start talking to a counselor regularly."
No thank you. I'm not ready for that. Maybe I'm making the wrong decision. I'm not sure.