Currently.

There is this picture in my bedroom. Its been hanging on the wall for a while . About a month ago someone slammed a door and now its hanging sideways.

This picture frame is everything right now.

I see it every day. I notice how crooked it is. I don't fix it. I don't care enough to. The other day, I walked into my room and stared at everything for I don't know how long. I noticed how my chapstick is supposed to be in my bag. How my bag is supposed to be next to my books. How my books aren't supposed to be burried under the pile of shit on my bed. How that pile of shit is not supposed to be there at all. Everything is out of place. Just like me. I don't know what I'm doing. I'm only sure about one thing. That one thing being my boyfriend. I don't want to clean my room. I try. I move about two things then I either get distracted or stop because I don't feel like doing it.

The way you make me feel.

4 months now. I don't think I've ever made a better decision in my life. I was so incredibly scared to tell you how I felt. Of course I kept thinking of the worst. If you didn't like me back, it would be awkward. I didn't want to ruin such a great friendship. Other things kept holding me back from telling you too. Then I thought...I shouldn't care what anyone else thinks, I deserve to be happy.
Its so strange how we ended up. A good strange though. As I looked at you with hate-filled eyes (for no reason) in 7th grade, us being together was the last thing going through my mind.
I don't know if you know this but, you've made my life so much easier. Now that you've read about my past you know how things were. You, Austin and Nina made me feel alive again in 8th grade.

When I'm with you nothing else matters. Its just you and me. You and me? God, that still sounds so good.
When you touch me, I get butterflies.
When I'm talking to you, I forget what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm obsorbed into you.
When people flirt with me, I just picture you which brings a smile to my face. I don't want anybody else. I just want you.
You are your own person. That is one of the most attractive things about a person.
Your a strong person. Thats also very attractive. I wouldn't want somebody weak.
Sometimes your a mystery.
When I'm with you, I feel important.
Your understanding. That means a lot to me.
I cannot lie to you, I refuse to. I want to make this work.
I'm not scared when I'm around you. I want to let you in. I want you to know me even more. And I want to know you even more.
Your so adorable. .
I love that you play guitar. It shows that your passionate about something.
You aren't afraid to try new things.
I love when you let me in. If its possible, I fall for you even more.
I'll stand up for you, even if I'm against the whole world.
I'm upset when you get upset.
I love that you don't like routine. It shows that you aren't boring. haha. Everyone knows you not boring.
You have this strong power over me whether you realize it or not. I would do anything for you. I want to give you everything. You're perfect.
And if I could, I would take you away from here.
I really want us to last. I want that more than anything.
I'm going to make you angry and dissapointed. But just remember, I love you.