Only we could do something that impulsive, crazy, and dumb and enjoy it. I love you, my "soulmate".

Present.

I just bought myself a couch at Goodwill today. It will be the only piece of furniture in my room. Bed & chill spot.

Get my nose pierced?

Only two days of work this week. Not sure what to do with all of that time.

Old bug for sale. Its in great shape. I've yet to ask them how much it is. I'm scared to know. Its a beauty.

Going to Hoover. Its decided.

Gained a few pounds. Healthier?

I want my body to feel better. Time to start running again. I want someone to go with me.

Dates :)

Staying with mom and Kenny for a couple days. Its nice.

Finished the book Crank. I think everyone should read it.

I'm going to build myself a stand. It will take time and focus. It will be good for me.

I'm so excited to make my room mine finally.

I need to start writing again. I've not touched my journals in forever.

Movies, flowers, music, out to eat, walking, guitar playing, singing.

I'm really trying to forgive myself. I think with you, it will be much easier.

I've got a cellphone now? Yep, I've come to the conclusion that they are pretty convenient.

Who will take me to a hippie fest?

Colors, colors, colors.

Bonding with dad. Cooking, watching movies.

dancing with gay guys. sleeping on couches. late night tv. flowers. ramen noodles & green tea. acceptance. weight changes. ilovemybrother. chit-chat coffee shop. concert downtown. tunnel vision. need to study. creating a new life. smoke is bad for you. people giving me their numbers. dresses. old friends. kennys girlfriend. 1960's. paint. old scent. just a phase. deep thought. discipline.

Doing it right.

I'm still not sure what the right thing is.
I do know that this time I'm not going to give up. And I'm not just going to go with what happens. I'm going to make plans and stick to them. And I'm not going to trick myself into thinking I can go against my own rules once in a while.
I'm done with everything being the way it was. Relationships, places, plans, the present, just everything.
Time for a change.